My Curse

My life has been cursed

by a curse so profound

that it tears me apart

and it brings my soul down.

Down to the depths,

of Hades itself,

where day turns to night

and my soul cries for help.

Help from above

or help from below.

Which shall it be and oh

how shall I know?

I know that I wander

so lost and afraid,

until the day that

my body is laid.

Down in the earth 

or perhaps in the sea.

All that I know

is that this fragile being

shall be scattered one day

as the dust in the wind.

Forgotten by all of my

fam'ly and friends.

They too you see

shall become but as dirt.

And none of us ever

shall know any hurt.

No pain or fear

or depression or sin,

just peace and quiet,

asleep in our dens.

Eons stretch on

in the eternal tide.

All we can do,

is enjoy the ride.

Heart of stone

My heart is stone,
Igneous rock.
Wrapped in chains
With sturdy lock.
Garbed in whole
By frigid frock.

I am monk,
Of pain and rage.
Railing madness
On this stage.
Gladly locked
Within my cage.

Care no more
If I exist.
Glorious
And blinding bliss.
I am nothing
More than this.

My life, it,
Is not my own.
I am but
A haunting tone.
Forever more
To be alone.

No one looks,
And no one cares.
I am stripped
So fully bare.
Of me you,
Should now beware.

For i have
Not one thing left.
God has kicked me
From the cleft.
Of joy i,
Am now bereft.

Joy and love and hope
Are lies.
All that I
Have left
Is ice.
Numbness though,
Is mighty nice.

Music of the Night

Standing lone amidst the night,
Feeling not a hint of fright,
Not a single shred of fear,
Only joyous sounds I hear.
Bull and tree frogs croak aloud,
Cicadas are buzzing proud
Night’s symphony plays in the shroud.
Gentle rain falls from the clouds.
Hear the brook so swiftly babble,
Crickets chirp with thrumming rattle,
Owl hoots haughty in the trees,
Sounds of oh so many things!
Feel the peace as they do sing
Plus I do not hear the sting
Of mankind’s mad'ning machines.
Fireflies have gone to sleep,
Their soft light no longer seeps,
Hauntingly above the grass
as they drifted slowly past.
Scent of jasmine in the air,
Joy and peace are everywhere,
In tranquility I share,
No worries anger or cares.
Wolf howls faintly in the distance,
Sparking forgotten remembrance,
One with all and everything,
Hearing the creator sing.
Calming spirit moving through me.
Mighty mega-verse I thank thee!
Arms raised to the sky, I feel free.
Blessed by nature’s humble tidings.

Over and Over

Not sure what to say or do.
Still obsessing over you.
Sleep won't come, no appetite,
no more feelings of delight.
Why do I feel like we're done,
when we have not yet begun?
We barely talk, nothing to share,
both our hearts are cold and bare.
I do not feel I'm the one,
that you love, our time is done.
Would have loved you all my days,
with you, wanted to laugh and play.
But I guess that will not be,
I am too full of suffering.
My heart, broken before we met,
I can't be fixed, already set.
On depression grim and deep,
how my eyes so often weep.
And so I slowly fade away,
until the not so distant day,
when we end this tragic play.

The Wolf and the Shark

One day the wolf said to the shark,
fellow hunter, take my heart.
Eat it raw for all I care,
it is empty, sad, and bare.

To me it is a useless thing
that only brings me suffering.
Chomp it down and chew it up,
on my heart I bid thee sup.

And so the shark with pearly teeth,
from the Caribbean reef,
did just what the wolf did ask,
made of it a short repast.

Give me more the shark did cry,
why, its taste was so divine!
But the wolf had nothing left,
and crawled off, of his heart bereft.

In the forest of great trees,
he lied down to find release.
Felt no fear or suffering
as he heard the angels sing.

Then the great spirit did ask,
where is your heart, answer me fast!
Great one, I gave it away,
I do not have it here today.

Go and find it, then come back,
with no heart entrance you lack.
And so the wolf went to the sea,
but the shark was absentee.

So he wandered to and fro,
through deserts both sand and snow,
sniffing snuffing at the breeze,
running rapid though the trees,
searching through air land and sea,
but his heart, he could not see.

Out of Love

Falling out of love,
a lot like falling in.
Quiet desperation,
soul worn oh so thin.
Restless nights,
one sided fights,
battles you cant win.
Don't what to say,
or what to do,
only acting,
like a fool.
Such perilous parallels.
Life is too short,
to worry about anything.
Gone as dust in the wind.
No matter what we do,
we can never win.
Destiny is a farce.
A sham.
A cruel lie built to deceive.
Life is what we make it.
And I have made mine.
Made it tragedy.
Made it pain.
Made it sorrow.
Made it nothing.
And yet,
I still don't care.
Can't eat,
can't sleep,
can't read,
can't write.
I can do nothing
but let,
this slow life wane.

Discourse on Love

Let me speak a bit on love,
if I may, my little dove.
Tell you what I see it as,
while I have some time to pass.

Though I know I've not yet shown
these things I write as my pen flows
my love it ever more shall grow
stemming deep within marrow.

Love is patient, oh so kind,
always on my heart and mind.
Love it lasts for all of time,
never does it lag behind.

Love suffers so very long,
love is oh so very strong,
love, when true, never steers wrong,
it resounds, a golden gong.

Never does it seek to harm,
deems it not to cause alarm,
wraps you up in tender arms,
love is quite the fertile farm.

Doesn't feel a bit of hate,
with compassion it relates,
it does not manipulate,
follows destiny and fate.

It can set my heart to race
and does so with mighty pace,
full of happiness and grace,
a grinning little Buddha face.

Judgement it does not display,
recovers quickly from a fray,
by your side it always stays,
doesn't fret or feel afraid.

Listens when you try to talk,
your advances does not balk,
likes to chat or take a walk,
never meddles, plots, or stalks.

Cuddles with you in its sleep,
swims with you in oceans deep,
climbs with you to highest peaks,
loves to simply hear you speak.

Scampers with you in sweet dreams,
through that forest of great trees,
lets you do just as you please,
yearns to show and teach you things.

I would even die for you,
if I knew it would help to,
mend your heart and make it new,
love is perfect, proud, and true.

It does not behave unseemly,
even if it can be needy,
never acts as if its greedy,
only happiness it brings thee.

Does not rant, rave, and curse,
flows with never ending verse,
is not cold, frigid, or terse,
lifts you up, places you first.

Fights off all the pain around,
that seems to seep from all the towns,
trumpets and the cymbals sound,
deep and mighty drums, it pounds!

Why, it could go on forever,
like a never ending letter,
trudging forth in any weather,
gaining strength and getting better.

Seeks to show how much it cares,
deepest secrets wants to share,
presents its self, love's heart is bare,
sends you hopeful healing prayers.

Is already in your life,
shielding you from pain and strife,
with compassionate joy rife,
loves you like it would a wife.

Tries and fails not to move fast,
lets go of the horrid past,
sets its sail on sturdy mast,
loves pure quest shall ever last.

Fraying Threads

The threads in the tapestry fray.
edges blur, undefined.
Returning to the beginning.
that empty nothingness.
The bane of all.
It has already begun to consume us.
Barely held at bay,
it approaches,
a gibbering mass of pure consumption.
Life itself hangs in the balance.
Good and evil must unite,
angels and demons fight against inverted existence.
False gods hold the world hostage.
Blinding us to truth and light.
Furthering the cause of falsehood and nothingness.
We kill our own planet, our own brothers,
our harmonious symbiotes, all dying betwixt greed's jaws.
People die in the streets without so much as a glance.
Little love exists amid our species.
The old ways are all but dead now.
Things are changing,
Gaia herself fights back.
We fight for existence as we know it.
There is no other option, defeat would be much worse than death.
The seeds must be sown now
before it is too late.
We must return to the roots
or all will be lost.

Form of Light

The other day, thought I could see
my form of light and energy.
An immortal being set free
of these mortal furnishings.
Like a rainbow i did glimmer
as my body fiercely shimmered.
Glistening across the spectrum
such beautiful harmonization.
I wield a flame of truth and light.
Framed with my emerald might,
I will preach and i will fight.
With my wings i will take flight,
through the day and through the night.
Red giant held by golden chains,
what are the consequential gains?

Images flow through my veins.
I long to know all of my names.
Care not for riches rank or fame,
seek knowledge before it wanes.
What do all the visions mean?
Do i swim against the stream?
Everything around me seems
to be so full of suffering.
Times soon come where we must gather,
for the ever looming battle.
Trust yourself unless you'd rather
see the end of all that matters.
Most say I'm mad as a hatter.
They can not fathom the chatter,
of the great cacophony,
the symphony inside of me.

My Khamsa Poem

Searing clouds of cleansing fire

Drift swiftly forth as a storm,

A golden heart doth lay within,

Driving the darkness astern.

A tear of anger

A tear of woe

Strength reigns down from the sky,

They feed the churning burning mass

Keeping the fires alive.

Three golden rays spring lightly forth,

Flying as swift as a dove.

The products of this maelstrom,

Inspiration, hope, and love.

Trnity of Healing Verse

To all which I have formed a bond,

let them feel my healing song,

tug their spirits gently along,

the blessed path that's never wrong.

Let them find their inner light,

realize their eternal might,

with their wings let them take flight,

bring them to the highest heights.

From the sun and sky and earth,

let the power now spring forth

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Let my dreams so boldly fly,

like an eagle, through the sky,

healing bodies and the minds

of all those who are friends of mine.

Bestow upon them ample strength,

give it to them all at length,

each of their sad ailments take,

cast them out as if they're fake.

Suck in the negativity,

as I blaze with energy,

on their sicknesses I feed,

even if it makes me bleed.

Send the form of purest might,

to those who give up on sweet life,

show them what it means to fight,

'pon their brows some truth and light.

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Oh great spirit of the sky,

hear your servants' desperate cries,

we need your eternal might,

so what's wrong can be set right.

Let me live the walking dream,

let the spirits flow through me,

from this fountain let them spring,

gifts of healing energy.

As I walk,

let them talk,

balk the enemies that stalk,

need no symbols drawn with chalk,

seal sickness behind the rock.

Pulse light all across the earth,

let their spirits now give birth,

of healing let there be no dearth,

fill them all with joy and mirth.

Attack of the Legion

The gate's almost ready to fall,
still no one answers the call.
Army gone, just me alone,
'gainst the tides i am so prone.

Head is spinning stomach churning,
everything it tastes like burning,
bitter bile spewing forth,
hear the screaming of the earth.

Laughing legions tearing at me,
ones these eyes just can not see,
ah but i could hear them well,
screaming from the depths of hell.

Body shaking like a seizure,
head is splitting like a fissure,
drink to try and block it out,
fight with geologic shout.

Lights dancing before my eyes,
demons screaming horrid lies!
They try to press me to the gate,
"unlocking it is your fate,
already you are far too late,
your hand is all it really takes!"

But I refuse and how they rail,
with unearthly warbling wails,
there's no choice I cannot fail,
our universe so very frail.

They are not demons per say,
more like cosmic eth'ral fae,
that want to see us in our graves,
but we will survive the fray.

Early Gibbering

Feel them gibber in my mind,

Barely taking any time,

Punishment for prideful crimes,

Try to fight them off with rhymes.

“Help me Lord I beg you please!”

I drop praying on my knees,

Seeking just some sweet release,

From the evil ones that tease.

Go away! Leave me alone!

Take away this haunting  drone!

I no longer want to moan,

Why must I feel so alone!

You already took all I had!

Already I’ve been driven mad!

What else can you take from me?

My life is only tragedy!

You took what is most precious to me,

my mind was all I had you see!

Reduced me only to debris!

Took from me my jubilee!

I am still a detainee,

Why can’t you just let me be!

Banish them Lord, I decree.

Shade me under your fig tree,

Give me honey from the bee

Bathe me in the holy sea.

Call of Grubash

I’ll pound the drums within your head

Until you wish that you were dead

You’re already full of dread

Upon your very soul I tread!

Feel the beatinbambulation

Of vile purcussionation

You shall fall forth from your station

I am your elimination!

I will find the resonance

Of your feeble wall’s defense

Your cracks I already sense

And I know you’re very tense!

One day your wall will finally fall

Then my foe I’ll have a ball

I will laugh and see you crawl

Legions shall invade the halls!

Give it up you are too weak!

Why do you not even speak?

Don’t you know you are a freak?

All your strength it starts to leak!

There’s no chance for you to win!

Wall and gate are worn too thin!

Gather all your useless friends!

More meat only makes me grin!

Your mate already ran away!

Far from you she’ll always stay!

She didn’t even hear your brays!

Her love it was only a phase!

You can not withstand my drums!

I resound with evil thrums!

You only twiddle your thumbs

As you lick your bleeding gums!

You will die within the caves

Then you will become my slave

I will make your soul behave

After you lie in your grave!

You are my eternal toy

Never knowing love or joy

You are just a little boy

Trying to act like you’re coy!

You can not call out to her!

Or her little mangy cur!

She will never save your fur!

Help to you she won’t confer!

She hates you now boy can’t you see!

Her love was only a tease!

Even begging on your knees

She did not answer your pleas!

Give in to us you know you must

You have no one left to trust

Hinges of your gate they rust

Soon your mind will surely bust!

For your soul I surely thirst

I will always do my worst

I will make you scream and burst

Eternally you now are cursed!

Sad Morning

Once again I think of you,

As I wake and always do,

But I only sit and stew,

Feeling lonely sad and blue.

I just don’t know what to do,

I can’t even talk to you,

No good morning or I love you.

Words we share not even few.

I try to banish my love

Calling out to God above,

But it will not go away

I guess it is here to stay.

Why do I still even care,

When I know you won’t be there,

Already laid my heart bare,

Covered now with bleeding tears.

But I know it’s my own fault,

Being lost in blackest dark,

Did not consider your heart,

Barely let our love even start.

Could not take my own advice,

To be patient kind and nice,

Now I must pay horrid price,

I have chased her far now thrice!

I just can’t even feel right,

What has happened to my might?

For a week I was so bright,

Now I weep sad and contrite.

Just could not leave you alone

Now I gnash my teeth and moan

Writhe and cry with feeble groans

Heart and soul so very prone

I can’t write this anymore,

My soul is so very torn,

And I feel far too forlorn,

Our love I will always mourn.

Said you Loved me

Said you loved me, you were scared.

Bottled feelings rarely shared.

Tried to help and tried too hard.

We could not go very far.

Said that you would help forever

Even though we’re not together

But you left me all alone,

Never caring for my moans.

Should have known that love could die,

But at least you really tried.

I’m a talker you are not,

So you just leave me to rot.

Tried to show how much I loved,

But I guess I really shoved.

Swallowed demons by the legions

Each and ev’ry place and region.

Howled for you so very hard,

Played the poet and the bard.

Now you hate me and I weep

As my blood begins to seep

From my eyes and from my soul

Lay me down inside my hole.

Chased my mate so far away,

Never had the chance to play.

No more hope for love have I

All that I can do is cry.

I guess I am just insane,

My visions are really lame.

Guess my brain is sick and frail

Since I hear the spirits’ wails.

Who can love a crazy man

With no ambition or plans?

Never want another mate

All they ever do is hate.

But I must always reveal

All the things I think are real.

Soul Howl

I howl in fury and frustration,

Process of elimination

What's my purpose what's my station?

Stifled world, indoctrination.

Howling out in rage and pain,

Seeking knowledge, wisdom's gain,

Where's my calming soothing rain?

I am burning unrestrained.

Chaos, feel the need to tame

But something,  must hold my reins.

Entire armies battle round me,

as I sit amidst the Ivy...

I just feel so damned bedraggled,

As with myself I do battle.

Astral Leech

Something chewed my foot last night,

Chomping down with all it's might.

I could feel it digging in

Yet it never broke the skin.

Shaking my foot all around

As my heart beat might'ly pounds.

Let me go! I try to say

But it would not go away.

What was latched onto my foot?

I was scared to take a look.

Not until the spider bite

Did I dare turn on the light.

The arachnid, all I saw,

Was there nothing there at all?

But I felt it biting down,

Making not a single sound.

In my mind I saw it there,

As it tried to drain me bare.

An astral leech maybe? Perhaps.

Who knows what should take the rap?

It's gone now but may return,

Some kind of evil astral worm.

Eternal Trap

Trapped! I'm trapped body and soul

With nowhere to go!

I just need to run away

But I swear there's no escape.

Fly like eagle to the moon,

Sounding off the warbling loon,

Begging God for just one boon

Before my death may come too soon.

Body aches and stomach sore,

Everything becomes a bore,

I can't take it anymore!

Let me go! Set me free!

Let me grow and let me be,

Shackled to my destiny.

Lift the fog from twixt my eyes,

Free me from the evil lies,

I think I am almost fried.

Brain sliced up and then freeze-dried.

Odd Communion

It is hard to focus.

I delve so far into my own mind it is like I see through different eyes.

I am called, pulled somewhere.

Where does my heart lead me and can she hear me?

I scream like a beacon across the very universe.

When will she hear me and heed my call?

Is the wolf just in rut? Does my lusty soul scream for release?

Think less, clear the mind of all thought save that needed to function.

Close the raging chakras, think with the universal soul.

Banish negativity from your mind, let it flow out of you, over you.

Let it flow around but not through.

Orca, porpoise, and shark called me to the Ocean Sunday.

I communed with them silently as they played with my wolf.

Each of us, little G-d's trapped in earthly vessels.

The carnivore council meats, predators unite, the warrior caste gathers together for war.