Discourse on Love

Let me speak a bit on love,
if I may, my little dove.
Tell you what I see it as,
while I have some time to pass.

Though I know I've not yet shown
these things I write as my pen flows
my love it ever more shall grow
stemming deep within marrow.

Love is patient, oh so kind,
always on my heart and mind.
Love it lasts for all of time,
never does it lag behind.

Love suffers so very long,
love is oh so very strong,
love, when true, never steers wrong,
it resounds, a golden gong.

Never does it seek to harm,
deems it not to cause alarm,
wraps you up in tender arms,
love is quite the fertile farm.

Doesn't feel a bit of hate,
with compassion it relates,
it does not manipulate,
follows destiny and fate.

It can set my heart to race
and does so with mighty pace,
full of happiness and grace,
a grinning little Buddha face.

Judgement it does not display,
recovers quickly from a fray,
by your side it always stays,
doesn't fret or feel afraid.

Listens when you try to talk,
your advances does not balk,
likes to chat or take a walk,
never meddles, plots, or stalks.

Cuddles with you in its sleep,
swims with you in oceans deep,
climbs with you to highest peaks,
loves to simply hear you speak.

Scampers with you in sweet dreams,
through that forest of great trees,
lets you do just as you please,
yearns to show and teach you things.

I would even die for you,
if I knew it would help to,
mend your heart and make it new,
love is perfect, proud, and true.

It does not behave unseemly,
even if it can be needy,
never acts as if its greedy,
only happiness it brings thee.

Does not rant, rave, and curse,
flows with never ending verse,
is not cold, frigid, or terse,
lifts you up, places you first.

Fights off all the pain around,
that seems to seep from all the towns,
trumpets and the cymbals sound,
deep and mighty drums, it pounds!

Why, it could go on forever,
like a never ending letter,
trudging forth in any weather,
gaining strength and getting better.

Seeks to show how much it cares,
deepest secrets wants to share,
presents its self, love's heart is bare,
sends you hopeful healing prayers.

Is already in your life,
shielding you from pain and strife,
with compassionate joy rife,
loves you like it would a wife.

Tries and fails not to move fast,
lets go of the horrid past,
sets its sail on sturdy mast,
loves pure quest shall ever last.

Lost

Lord I'm calling out to you for help most every day.

I am lost within this world can't seem to find the way.

To be at peace within myself and all that I hold dear.

I am lost in anger, worry, strife, and lust and fear.

Will you let me fall into the darkness of abyss?

I am pleading with you God don't let it end like this.

I am calling out to you we need your guidance pleasee.

Will you show us that you're there so we may feel at ease?

I know you are here my Lord I beg you stop the tease.

I need all the help you give so others might believe.

Everyone is lost right now just floating in the breeze.

I need you to show me how to calm these autumn leaves.

Help us, I beg you, I know I can not make you.

Every second of my life I wander looking for you.

I am here, hurting for you, yearning searching always for you.

Grace yourself upon us so that we may always serve you.

Yes my Lord, I implore you, as I try hard to explore you

Read my heart for you know that I mean no dissing towards you.

As I wander, over yonder, I'll sit down and prolly ponder

What it is that I must do to know my holy father.

Give this man, this disgrace, just a little taste of grace.

Lord I want to see your face, show me Lord where is my place.

What's my fate, am I too late, I need answers now post haste.

Silence

The silence tells me all I need to hear.
There's no chance you'll ever want me near.
And though I must now face my worst fears.
In my heart I'll always hold you dear.

We never even had a chance to try.
All that I can do is wail and cry.
Do not be afraid to tell my bye.
I will rise and heal again in time.

I'm just glad that you can love again.
In this way we all will truly win.
I will banish all this pain within.
And one day my life I will begin.

Not sure why you had to let me go.
Wish you would have at least let just me know.
And while I am still lost amidst the snow,
at least we can both now start to grow.

I will always think fondly of you.
It wasn't long till our love you outgrew.
Yes right now i feel so down and blue,
but my trials I always get trough.

Lift my head and wipe my tired eyes.
Wait for us to say our new goodbyes.
Love is born but yet it also dies.
After it all, from ashes, hope it flies.

Loveamorphisis

Good morning my love,
oh I hope you slept well!
I confess I did not sleep at all.
I have been musing not snoozing you see,
and driving myself up the wall.

I am addicted, sublimely afflicted,
to you more than anything else.
I try not to think about you all the time,
but I just can not help myself.

This beautiful pain that I feel is so real
and it cuts to my core like a blade.
Sometimes it might take incisions to heal,
but this flame inside me never fades.

I've never felt exactly like this,
it defies all attempts to define.
But I admit, above all it is bliss,
and within me it's tightly entwined.

Please have a great day, and I will as well,
the sun will soon shine warm above.
Something so sweet deep inside of me swells,
metamorphosed by this love.

Consuming Love

How can I begin to explain,

these feelings in my soul.

To define without refrain,
without seeming so droll.

I yearn for you, I burn for you,
more than I even know.
Can barely put it into words,
but still I long to show.

I'm addicted, afflicted,
away from you, restricted.
Feel like a, love sick kid,
I'm yours, I'm convicted.
All tied up, and twisted,
Just as I, predicted.

And my desire for you is a fire growing ever higher,
it will never start to fade nor will it ever cease or tire.
I would walk a million miles through the murkiest of mires,
Marching midst the deepest briers just to try and see you smile.

Every day, I stay away, I start to sway, a little more.
In a way, well you could say, this fray that I, call life's a bore.
So I pray, with howling brays, oh please allay, this maze, this chore.
Traipse with me through ocean waves and lay with me upon the shore.

We don't have very long to live, well, nor does any one.
The most important day in life is but the one you're on.
One day we won't wake and find that all the days are gone.
Life itself is something that does not last very long.
I need to be close to you, to your story and your song..
I just want to be with you before we sound our gongs.

Bringing Me Down

I'm bringing me down and that's bringing me down.

I do not know anything else.

I wear a shattered bleeding crown,

I just can't help myself.

Spiraling into my hell,

I'm ringing out the broken bells,

no one else can even tell,

the depths of fear that I here quell.

Suddenly I feel like fleeing

from myself and all my bleating,

oh this horrid sinking feeling,

like something upon me feeding.

Something evil and malignant,

but I know its but a figment.

I am just so damned indignant,

plus my brain's damaged equipment.

I am trapped within this world

my sails to never be unfurled.

Through this orbit I am hurled,

in fetal position curled.

I let down all those I love,

and they'd be wise to be rid of

this tainted crazy mutant dove,

far from them me yes they should shove.

So now I ruin everything

that was supposed to make me sing.

Addicted to my suffering

and all the trauma that it brings.

Know This

One day you may wish to know,

why it is I love you so.

I suppose it simply flows,

sewn into my very soul.

You're my love, my hope, my heart.

Love you wholly, not in part.

I have known it, from the start,

never wish, to be apart.

My strength you help me regain,

Something sweet to help sustain,

You are flowing in my veins,

fabulous, frenzied refrain.

I have no right to lament,

since to me, you have been sent,

you help me with my torment,

my madness, help circumvent.

Love me now, and love me then.
I would run to you again.
You remind me, of my zen,
and the things that I do ken.

Teach me, and I will teach you.
Show me things, I never knew.
I just want to be with you.
No matter, what we may do.

From The Ice

Far to the north midst ice and snow,

where the hoary wind does blow,

from the frigid soil grows,

something great, with love aglow.

Pushing up through permafrost,

something once thought to be lost,

something nothing can exhaust,

something with a priceless cost.

I'm proud to have helped it flower,

with gentle rain and sunshine showered.

Built for it a sturdy bower,

over oh so many hours.

And now I simply let it bloom,

freed now from its icy tomb.

I'll try to give it ample room

and fight to keep it free from gloom.

Love^7

Every day I love you more

than I had the day before.

There is so much to adore,

You're the one I was made for.

Long to hold you in my arms,

feel your tender loving charms,

keep you safe and free from harm,

till our new romantic farm.

Gaze into your gorgeous eyes,

show you you're my greatest prize,

make you feel the finest highs

hear your loud passionate cries.

Run my fingers through your hair,

lay my heart before you bare,

let you know how much I care,

make with you a perfect pair.

Say  I love you every day,

with you laugh,  joke, jump, and play,

prove to you I'm here to stay,

cheer you up when skies are gray.

Be the one you always need,

all my love to you I'll feed,

you're expectations exceed,

I know that we can succeed. 

Be your partner and your friend,

any strength you need I'll lend,

to your needs always attend,

one great day with you transcend.

Heart of Ice

I can't sleep and I can't eat,

can barely even feel my feet.

I tongue my broken shattered teeth,

what happened to my belief.

Never meant to feel this way

but now it seems it's here to stay.

Locked within these cold hard veins,

from my cage never to stray.

I will be forever more,

trapped behind sorrows stout door.

I am frozen to the core,

with an icy frigid hoar.

Cover me with ice and cold,

rot my guts with arctic mold,

empty now my once full hold,

I am drifting uncontrolled.

Come aboard my ghastly ship,

and from my cup of sorrows sip.

Kiss my bleeding frozen lips,

from my chest my heart please rip.

Deep within this permafrost,

I am so happily lost.

On the sea of torment tossed,

on my heart, despair embossed.

Joy and hope and light and love,

far from me I'll have them shoved.

These are not things I am of,

what a sad pathetic rub.

I will molder here alone,

belting out with dreary drone,

metered with misery's moan,

such a sad and haunting tone.

Meaning What?

I don't mean to sound contrived

but I don't want to be alive.

Into death to take a dive

so deep that I do not survive.

Set me free from mortal chore

for life is such a horrid bore.

I just don't like it anymore

and want to walk the golden shore.

Each day is harder than the last

one that has come and now is past.

Untie me now from the mast

for misery is unsurpassed.

Every second getting closer

to the day I am no more sir.

Thought I could be a composer

but I was only a poser.

I wish tonight I could have slept

so death my life could intercept.

In my rest upon me crept

so dawn from my eyes was kept.

I think I should end my life

with pills or jump or  steely knife.

I'm just tired of the strife

the tragedy and pain so rife.

I am going to sleep now

and hope and pray and plead somehow.

That the gods do not allow

mine eyes to open on my brow.

Thought at first that love could save me

from my head so weak and hazy.

Now it seems a thought so crazy

for thoughts of hope were far too hasty.

And I know that somebody

will show her these words that I bleed.

Then she'll run farther from me

and her face I will never see.

Wish we could have had a chance

besides this long distance romance.

I am lost within my trance

and now within my mind we dance.

I love you so very much

that I know I am just a crutch.

My love for you now is such

that I won't taint you with my touch.

One day you will forget me

it won't be very hard you see.

At least then you will be free

from my epic tragedy.

Whyning Plea

I am not worthy of your time.

Not worth more than a "hey" or 'hi".

Not worth a goodnight reply.

Do you want to say goodbye?

You say that you don't ignore me,

but that's exactly how it seems!

Now the heartache starts to team,

and I unravel at my seams.

If you want to let me go,

then PLEASE just hurry up and do so!

I already feel so low,

what's more pain for me to sow?

 Do not waste your time on me,

I am only misery,

In time I guess you will see,

and then you'll want to be set free.

Do You Even Know?

I don't think you know how much
this silence hurts, my heart I clutch.

This, may finally see me dead!
For I, am nearly fully bled.

Beating organ, broken down,
as I wail, pitiful sound.
You are here, but not around,
all in time, I will expound.

I have called to you for help,
with my little wolfy yelp.
Yet I'm too far back, on the shelf,
and I no longer want myself.

Don't think I can last much longer.
Your will must be so much stronger,
Than what little I have left,
Stashed within my feeble cleft.
A month or two, and not much more.
then I'll be free of the chore.
This life is a horrid bore
that I no longer have strength for.

The Start of the Fall

Its how it starts,
The little lies,
That brings the tears
to lovers' eyes.

"I love you",
yes,
this I know,
but it takes more
than words to show,
that which heals
and makes us grow,
I want to free us
from the snow.

As I am shut out,
I will,
fight and shout,
I won't go still.
I shall rant and rave until,
you find my words
so very shrill!

My love for you,
so very strong
that I will just
be pulled along,
like a fish right
on the hook,
I'm a dusty
open book.

Hear me whine
and hear me plead!
Can you not
hear my soul sing?
Tell me 

what...
is happening...
and listen

to my pleading rings.