Never Again

Never again, shall I look for love.
I've had enough of that pain.
Nobody seems to know what it is,
at least not the same way as I.
When I loved, I loved with all,
the entirety of my very being.
But those who loved, loved me at least,
treated me as but an afterthought.

Ruined

I've ruined it all.
Just as I,
always do.
Anything that brings me joy,
I eradicate,
without mercy.
Love?
I  chase it far away.
Happiness?
I destroy it with vengeance.
I have nothing,
I am nothing,
I want nothing.
NOTHING, is better than nothing.
I have nobody.
I want nobody.
I am nobody.

Love is cold

Love is cold as arctic ice.
Frigid stone untouched by sun.
Nothing cuts like is frozen razors.
Love is neither kind nor patient.
It is a facade built into society.
I will never let its keen edge cut into my heart again.
I am steel, hardened in the coldest of baths.

Death my friend

My greatest wish, is to die in my sleep.
Still my breath in my slumber,
and let the sun never again touch my eyes.
There is nothing left to my hollow existence.
Each waking moment is agony I fear to face.
I won't take much more, I can't.
I eagerly await death and shall clasp her to my bosom.
My fondest friend.
Come quickly my oldest of companions,
I long for your embrace.
Your soft touch stilling my breath,
your caress upon my brow and cold kiss upon my lips.
Fly swiftly to me my love, I beg you.