Form of Light

The other day, thought I could see
my form of light and energy.
An immortal being set free
of these mortal furnishings.
Like a rainbow i did glimmer
as my body fiercely shimmered.
Glistening across the spectrum
such beautiful harmonization.
I wield a flame of truth and light.
Framed with my emerald might,
I will preach and i will fight.
With my wings i will take flight,
through the day and through the night.
Red giant held by golden chains,
what are the consequential gains?

Images flow through my veins.
I long to know all of my names.
Care not for riches rank or fame,
seek knowledge before it wanes.
What do all the visions mean?
Do i swim against the stream?
Everything around me seems
to be so full of suffering.
Times soon come where we must gather,
for the ever looming battle.
Trust yourself unless you'd rather
see the end of all that matters.
Most say I'm mad as a hatter.
They can not fathom the chatter,
of the great cacophony,
the symphony inside of me.

Said you Loved me

Said you loved me, you were scared.

Bottled feelings rarely shared.

Tried to help and tried too hard.

We could not go very far.

Said that you would help forever

Even though we’re not together

But you left me all alone,

Never caring for my moans.

Should have known that love could die,

But at least you really tried.

I’m a talker you are not,

So you just leave me to rot.

Tried to show how much I loved,

But I guess I really shoved.

Swallowed demons by the legions

Each and ev’ry place and region.

Howled for you so very hard,

Played the poet and the bard.

Now you hate me and I weep

As my blood begins to seep

From my eyes and from my soul

Lay me down inside my hole.

Chased my mate so far away,

Never had the chance to play.

No more hope for love have I

All that I can do is cry.

I guess I am just insane,

My visions are really lame.

Guess my brain is sick and frail

Since I hear the spirits’ wails.

Who can love a crazy man

With no ambition or plans?

Never want another mate

All they ever do is hate.

But I must always reveal

All the things I think are real.

Soul Howl

I howl in fury and frustration,

Process of elimination

What's my purpose what's my station?

Stifled world, indoctrination.

Howling out in rage and pain,

Seeking knowledge, wisdom's gain,

Where's my calming soothing rain?

I am burning unrestrained.

Chaos, feel the need to tame

But something,  must hold my reins.

Entire armies battle round me,

as I sit amidst the Ivy...

I just feel so damned bedraggled,

As with myself I do battle.

Astral Leech

Something chewed my foot last night,

Chomping down with all it's might.

I could feel it digging in

Yet it never broke the skin.

Shaking my foot all around

As my heart beat might'ly pounds.

Let me go! I try to say

But it would not go away.

What was latched onto my foot?

I was scared to take a look.

Not until the spider bite

Did I dare turn on the light.

The arachnid, all I saw,

Was there nothing there at all?

But I felt it biting down,

Making not a single sound.

In my mind I saw it there,

As it tried to drain me bare.

An astral leech maybe? Perhaps.

Who knows what should take the rap?

It's gone now but may return,

Some kind of evil astral worm.

:O AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

My thought processes are busted,

swatches of my mind rusted,

so maladjusted I'm disgusted,

with myself, above all else,

this shell, locked in a hellish cell,

with a keening knell I can not dispel!

I must attest, that my mind is a gibbering mess,

I lust for rest, it's high time to end this bantering stress!

I need to be free of this anxiety before it kills me you see!

Already on my knees, as I plead, for release, surrounded, by my own debris!

Too many pieces are missing.

I'm pissing away all my time!

I can feel everything slipping,

dripping right out of my mind!

Here I am writhing and twisting,

wishing I wasn't confined!

Who tell me who is still listening?

I'm listing here on my side!

My head, will not stay still!

I'm filled, with dreadful trills.

So shrill, I'm feeling so ill,

gonna spill, my guts....

I''m going nuts!

A mental klutz!

If life's a joke, then I'm the butt.

Whyning Plea

I am not worthy of your time.

Not worth more than a "hey" or 'hi".

Not worth a goodnight reply.

Do you want to say goodbye?

You say that you don't ignore me,

but that's exactly how it seems!

Now the heartache starts to team,

and I unravel at my seams.

If you want to let me go,

then PLEASE just hurry up and do so!

I already feel so low,

what's more pain for me to sow?

 Do not waste your time on me,

I am only misery,

In time I guess you will see,

and then you'll want to be set free.

Driving Myself Crazy

No idea what's going on,

when you respond it takes so long.

What has happened to our song,

why do things now seem so wrong?

Ignored and forgotten,

my guts are all rotten,

oh what have I gotten

myself into now!

Barely talk anymore

as if I am a chore,

oh yes, some awful bore

that is bringing you down.

My heart torn asunder,

perhaps I'm a blunder?

I sit here and wonder,

when you'll be around.

 Why do you ignore me

It's driving me crazy

And now all I see

are my tears on the ground.