don't need you

I don't need you.

Don't need anything at all.

And I mean to,

Simply sit and watch the fall.

Maybe I'll bleed through,

your cold indifferent walls.

Do you bleed too,

Do, I mean anything at all?

Garbled screaming rising from the bottom of my soul.

Words you'll never understand though you won't try at all.

Everything you said to me is lost within the snow.

Now the time has come for us to end this tragic show!

Wish i could see

I wish I could see,

The better side.... of me.

When I used to sing,

About almost, anything.

And I don't know just what i should do

Every day I am feeling so lost and so blue.

Every night as I fall asleep

All of the misery inside of my soul starts to seep.....

Oh....  these dreams.

We fly on our broken wings.

So, up high.

Oh so many miles past the sky.

Through, crystal caves,

And unseen shades, of rain.

Sounds, abound, surrounding me with sweet refrains.

I really just want to stay,

Inside my bed, all day.

Can't,  take the pain,

It's really become such a strain.

and I feel that I have no hope left

Everything is a mess and I can't lift my head.

and every night as I fall asleep

I find myself wishing I'd just wake up dead.

No, more dreams.

I fall on these, broken wings.

No, more time,

I have wasted all of mine.

I'm,  nothing, and nothing will, always be.

Hit, the ground, and that's where I, was buried.

let me go

Just let me go,

I'm dead to you.

There's nothing left

For us to do.

We're not happy, anymore

And life's become, a boring chore.

There was a time,

I was daring and bold.

Now my fire is out.

And I have grown cold.

Forget about me,

I'll forget about you.

We weren't meant to be.

This is long overdue. 

Nothing can save me.

Not even myself.

Even you put me,

far back on the shelf.

Especially when,

I was needing your help.

This is my story my life and my song:

Every word, note, and line, came out wrong.

happy?

I don't think I can be happy anymore.
In fact,  I don't even want to be.
the only reason I'm alive is
that I don't want to hurt my family and animals with suicide.
but I want death, badly.
maybe tonight,  my dreams will come true
and I will finally die in my sleep.
I will not hide anymore.
Everything hurts and I want it to end.
Please, just let me die.

happy?

I don't think I can be happy anymore.
In fact,  I don't even want to be.
the only reason I'm alive is
that I don't want to hurt my family and animals with suicide.
but I want death, badly.
maybe tonight,  my dreams will come true
and I will finally die in my sleep.
I will not hide anymore.
Everything hurts and I want it to end.
Please, just let me die.

another sleepless night

Most nights I lay on my bed

And think about the words you've said.

Words no longer pure and kind,

They cut me down right to the rind.

I feel used and so betrayed,

I'm a lost abandoned stray,

Finally chased far away.

We..... have nothing left to say.

Just go away

Just go away.

Leave me alone.

I don't want to talk

At all anymore.

Everything,

Silent and miserable pain. 

Torturous anguish,

Night after day.

I have no joy left, 

it has all drained away.

Only this horrible silence remains.

Nothing I want,

not to say or to do.

Everything's done,

it is over,  I'm through. 

Forget that I ever existed at all

And please turn your head as I stumble and fall.

I waste away day by day in my bed,

afraid to rise and survey all this dread.

The one that was me is now dead in their grave.

Only this hollowed out zombie remains.